Thank you for deciding to share your birth story. I know it isn’t easy, but it’s important. I feel like I was so easily able to share vulnerable things until I had a baby. Now I share and retract all the time. I’m afraid of judgement or hard conversations. I hope you keep going! I want to hear your story. And on the planning the perfect motherhood story… before J was born I lovingly sewed dozens of gusseted cloth diapers in three sizes out of reclaimed cotton sheets. We were 100% disposable by 4–6 months.